Journal Entry 7/5/2021

On this fourth of July I got to run out of medication that I need (and can’t get refilled). On this fourth of July my uncle informed me of atrocities his mother experienced as a native woman going to mandatory schools where her language was beaten from her. On this fourth of July I contemplated the nearly 1 million Americans who died of COVID because we allow ourselves to be governed by idiots. On this Fourth of July, while revelers set off fire works in the street, a massive pile of hot air sits over much of the country — the direct result of our hubris.

I don’t feel like celebrating this year — or indeed maybe any year ever again. We live in a country where right wing lunatics nearly effectuated a coup while smearing their shit all over the walls and a significant portion of the country cheered them on. We live in a country where rapists can start a social media platform that sounds like “get her.” America is broken and malignant these days, and much of any patriotism I had is gone. Good luck and get vaccinated — its every man for himself.